I don’t miss you when I’m with him

he gave him everything
his best
his sweat
his suffering

you know how it is

pretending to live
each day like you’re his

the devils day dream

you don’t have to burn these shit cities to the ground
don’t try to drive it so far in I can’t get it out

you don’t have to swim across the ocean
or chain yourself to the bottom
of the sea
If you feel like you want me
You want me you want me
You’ve got me

too young to go numb
too old to die young

when he realizes
that he’s not breathing in
he can see it ending
but not how it begins
later they’ll say
He’d been like this for weeks
that he forgot how to eat
long before he forgot how to speak.

NIGHTNIGHT by DEDDY